Honesty!!! vent all the same

You girls know as well as I do what it is like month after month to get AF and month after month to have the heart break of BFN, after starting to TTC again in February 2005 I had a laproscopy performed and was told again that the cyst were there and that my bladder was enlarged and I should consider adoption. That fell upon deafs ears; Jeff nor his parents wanted to hear of such so I let it go. After a year of TTC on my own including getting Clomid off the internet and temping every day I decided it was time to see a specialist. I spent 1000's of dollars at the Reproductive medical center, (to the point I haven't been in over a year and I am still paying 75 dollars a month to pay the bill off). In May 2009 I decided enough was enough and I'd focus on me for a while and went on this diet. Now it's a battle to even sit down to a meal or go out in public with out being attacked with the questions and the "it's not fair to Lexy to be raised as an only child" I want to scream!!!!!!!!!

Girls I can't take it any more. I cussed Jeff out for not standing up for me over the weekend. He was with them in the bashing of my decisions. Do they not get the fact that the reason I decided not to have another baby is because I CAN'T!!!! I TRIED!!!! It's completely out of my control at this point, so rather than worry month after month whether or not it's my time, I've come to terms with only having one child. Why can't they. Would they rather see my heart broken month after month????

How do I make them stop????

have you litterally told them? I mean like you just did here?

poor thing, I can't believe they dont get it, espically dh, i mean it has been years you have tried OBVIOUSLY he should SEE the heartbreak for you and that it is tearing you down. He needs a SMACK!

Yep, Colleen, SEVERAL times. And their answer is "Your not trying hard enough"

And I can't even say it's just his parents, cuz yesterday it was the Owner of the restaurant, the waitresses at the restaurant and everyone else at the table. I hear it from coworkers, his friends, my friends. EVERYONE EXCEPT Sissie and you girls!!!!

Which is why I started telling people I decided to not have any more.

I even heard "Jeff should do like Jason did"

Jason (Jeff's cousin) went outside his marriage after 6 years of trying and got another girl pregnant with twins.